Trigger

I am the one.
I am the one to blame.
And I am the only one to be punished.

I'm the trigger of the gun that wants to kill me.
And I may belong to shame.

I'll still say, it wasn't my fault that I was born.If I knew any authentic way to remove my existence, then that would've been done by now. Or maybe sooner.

But there isn't any authentic way. How could there be, when I also belong to my own survival instincts?
So what if it seems wrong to you?

Tell me, won't you be angry if I make you angry? You don't have enough self control to avoid anger. And when the true form of anger arrives, self control is just two unmatched words.

So, making things close and having people close is a curse, because you'll be destroyed by them. Because they'll do exactly what might hurt you. Even if they care, they care for themselves much more if the person in front of them cares.

A holy waste, to involve feelings. No one will understand that. They'll always involve themselves with that, saying that's what makes them human.

Well, it doesn't. The truest form of being human is selfishness.
I won't explain why. Because the explanation is relative.

I just want to become Brilliantly Numb. And it takes it all.
And I will give it all.

You may become Brilliantly Numb.